Divorce isn’t a story many of us dream of telling, yet for some, it becomes an inevitable chapter in life’s journey. For me, it was a chapter filled with heartbreak, courage, and unshakable faith. My decision to leave a toxic marriage wasn’t just about walking away—it was about stepping into God’s will, even when the world seemed to be against me.
Obedience Over Fear
When my marriage reached a breaking point, I had to face a choice: obey God or bow to the pressures of man. God had been speaking to me clearly about the toxic environment my daughter and I were enduring. He reminded me of the authority He had entrusted to me as her parent—a responsibility to protect her emotionally, spiritually, and physically. With every conviction in my heart, I knew I had to act.
Removing her from that harmful situation wasn’t easy. It led to a series of battles with the court system, culminating in my arrest and a 30-day jail sentence. I faced accusations, fear, and overwhelming pressure to back down. Yet through it all, I clung to the promises God had spoken over my life.
Burning the Ships
One of the hardest lessons I learned during this time was what it meant to fully surrender. There’s a song by For King & Country called “Burn the Ships,” and its message resonated deeply with me. Like the explorers of old who burned their ships to commit fully to their mission, God “burned my ships” to push me out of my comfort zone. He knew I would procrastinate and hesitate, but by removing any way back, He ensured I stayed on the path He had for me.
When my marriage ended, it felt like everything I’d known was set ablaze. It was terrifying, but it was also freeing. God was clearing the way for His purpose in my life, and though the road ahead was difficult, I knew He was leading me.
Walking Through Fire
The journey didn’t end with my release from jail. For nine years, I’ve been fighting for the freedom God promised me and my daughter. I’ve lost so much along the way—comfort, material possessions, and even the support of those I thought were allies. But I’ve also gained immeasurable clarity and a deeper relationship with God.
Like Daniel in the lion’s den and Joseph in the prison, I’ve learned that God’s path often requires us to walk through fire before reaching freedom. He doesn’t call us to an easy life, but He does promise His presence and His peace.
Why I’d Do It All Again
Looking back, I can confidently say that I’d make the same decisions, even knowing the cost. Why? Because I’m no longer stuck in a life outside of God’s will. I’m no longer trapped in a toxic marriage, wondering if God has abandoned me. Today, I’m in the center of His plan, surrounded by His love and witnessing His hand move in my life daily.
Jail or no jail, there is no freedom like the freedom found in Christ.
A Word for You
If you’re facing a similar crossroads, I want to encourage you: don’t let fear dictate your choices. Seek God with all your heart, trust His guidance, and take the steps He’s calling you to take. It won’t be easy, but it will be worth it.
God’s plans for you are good, even when the road to them feels overwhelming. You are not alone in this journey. Trust that He is with you every step of the way, leading you toward freedom and purpose.
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With love,
Amanda Nicole
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